So yeah, I’ve been away.
I wish I could spend a daily, dedicated chunk of focus time on here. My ideas truly do grow like a relentless weed, and lack of time is the poison that halts.
The ABK vault – in the form of multiple notepads strewn across the house + countless apps (incl. trusty Notes) – still do hold all these future plans. It makes me sadder than nothing else that I can’t bring them all to fruition right now.
For now, I will still potter and plant a seed here and there when I can. Know I’m still here, still wanting to scream the better word as loud as ever.
Enjoy this Taking Stock post/peek on into my current world, and you’ll discover why exactly I struggle to fit it all in! And maybe have a gig or two.
Miss you. x
Making: protein shakes all day long. Currently in the middle of a 12 week body transformation challenge and my nutrition game has been tight. Apart from like 5 wines over the past week. Which I think still ok, cause, grapes.
Cooking (pre-challenge): Buddha/rainbow/abundant/hippie bowls. I actually just call them picky plates. And mine are likely to be far unhealthier but way tastier? Going to smash my go-to messy bowl recipe up on the blog soon for you to enjoy yo self…
Drinking: Mandatory morning coffee, and 2.5 litres of water erryday. Nothing else. Oh, ‘cept those 10,000 aforementioned protein shakes (it’s really only three daily but ya know). So I feel mildly superhuman right about now. Who needs to pee far too much – but TOXINS BE GONE, right?
Reading: Anna Kendrick’s Scrappy Little Nobody. And at a snails pace. I have about enough energy upon crawling into bed to read one paragraph nightly. So much for a book a week!
Trawling: More like getting lost in Muzli – an amazing design inspo plugin for your internet browser of choice. I always open this (and a Reddit tab) first thing. Choose from lots of different feeds based on your particular design interest (web/graphic, tech news etc) and off you go into a world of pure inspiration.
Wanting: some Mister Nice Guys cupcakes. And a few of their spinach and cheese scrolls (my fave). 50-ish days to go…
Looking: at my assessment due dates for this term and melting into a puddle. This is just for a term, not all three years?!
Deciding: to be more minimalist this year in terms of clothing spendies. Fast fashion be gone (or at least dramatically reduced)! Always been a fan of investing in good quality threads, but going to really hone in on it this year, as well as take full note of the ethical stance of who I am buying from. Better options – always.
Wishing: I could control time. Weeks have passed but I’m not used to my son’s transition into kinder and still unsure how to fit all my study/errands/blog into those days now. You think with more time, I’d be able to blitz it all, right?
Waiting: for SO much. Better Call Saul. Alien: Covenant. Thrones.
Wondering: when will my life beginnnnn. Sorry that’s Frozen. Wondering if distance university was such a good idea after all. This is only week 1, but I feel like I’m drowning already. I know I can do this, but it will be by crawling on my raw hands and knees. Super challenging and scary AF.
Loving: The Expanse. I’m pretty picky on what sci-fi I’m into, but an old friend recommended this, and I turned insta-fan from first ep. Highly recommend. I mean, Thomas Jane is in it. Even IF he looks like a filthy drug-dealing magician, you still totally would.
Listening: to everything, everyday. Rising Water by James Vincent McMurray far too much. Great tune from mid-2016 – chill, happy, ace. Do You Remember by Jarryd James. THAT VOICE YO. Am I Wrong by Anderson .Paak. Funky AF. All my old faves, and as always, lots of Children Gambino. Maybe I should make my Spotify public so you can browse my tunes? Let me know in the comments if that’s something you wants!
Considering: buying a bike. Already have a neglected gym membership so I should slow my roll. But their cute baskets are just built for mid-week grocery/cider pop-in’s. Sounds like tons of fun (plus fitness all at once, or something).
Buying: no more chocolate for 2017. Seriously, cupboard space is strained.
Watching: Atlanta. Goddamn, everything that kid touches turns to gold.
Hoping: That everyone is easy on themselves this year – myself included. Slow and steady win the race, eh? Mistakes and stumbles aren’t necessarily a bad thing.
Needing: A Nintendo Switch. Still so much PS4 to smash through, but GOTTAM I just want to 1-2 Switch so bad.
Questioning: whether to change my blog layout again. Yes, seriously. I have a problem.
Smelling: like a sexy musky tramp sent from heaven. Seriously hate to brag, but if you grab yourself Korres’ Vanilla, Lychee and Freesia EDT, then you will too. You’re welcome.
Wearing: stripes again well into the new year. It is borderline nuts (and embarrassing) how many white and navy striped tees one human can own. World record attempt in progress.
Admiring: all the talented people in my community getting shit done. Will be sharing their awesomeness with you here in the very near future!
Getting: as many Evil Queen candles as my bank account will permit. WANT THEM ALL. Starting with this guy, because he’d likely remind me of one of mine and a good pals favourite spots, Tarra Bulga National Park (feature picture). We’ve made a pact to do regular walkies there every other weekend, super nice and early. Such a magical place, totally melts any stress away and you return back to town feeling completely revived and ready to be productive AF. I figure if I have this candle, I can be motivated and stress-free always, right?
Disliking: my baby back cut that is healing. Just had a freckly removed (all clear). The reason it’s a dislike is that it has set me back a few weeks in upper body training, ya know, since I couldn’t risk popping it open. Never thought I’d see the day I would complain about having a reason to not exercise!
Opening: endless vegan subscription boxes full of yummy treats I can’t yet eat. At least my little dude ransacks the stash often so temptation is reduced!
Feeling: pretty damn free. For the longest time, I have relied on others for happiness. Nothing wrong at all with my beautiful friends and family, but I heavily relied upon them to bring me joy, instead of myself. And that kind of living is totally unfair not just to them, but to yourself. 2016 was a big learning curve, and I am now totally happy and confident with myself alone, not waiting on someone else to feed my soul for me. Feels fucking incredible, and I feel like I give and offer so much more as a friend now that I’ve found my true self again.
Celebrating: my dedication to the Maxine’s 12 Week Challenge. I attempted this back in 2015 and failed around Week 8 – mainly because I started for all the wrong reasons. I did it for everyone else but myself. The program did however, actually help me go vegetarian, because I got so sick having to eat meat. Went vego from then, and only a few short months later, vegan. Now they have a proper vegan version of their program, I decided to do it again. This time for me (not others) and just quietly – I’m killing it.
Pretending: like I don’t want a tub of ice-cream right now. The pizza shop is a short walk away and they got the good vegan stuff in like 10 minutes after I started being good. Such tease!
And that’s a wrap!
Hope you enjoyed this more personal-esk style post, and may the rest of your week be ace AF. x